Today, I have taken the liberty of deleting some old negative entries where there's really no substance, just bitching, lol. I vent here. Can't help that. But I thought there wasn't a lot of point in filling up space with a lot of ranting when there's no real reason. I'm still working on it, but it's cleaned up a bit ;)
In the mean time, I've started posting short blogs on tumblr
, mostly images, quotes and music I like to express how I'm feeling or what I'm doing right now when I don't feel like sitting down and verbalizing it. Or as a supplement to a real-live blog post.
I heard yesterday that the person who's hiring in Athens, Mark, told one of my coworkers here that he thinks the position will come down to me and an internal candidate. Which is of course good, but it's hard to beat an internal candidate. So the hopes are not up. Much. And my coworker told him that I asked her if I could shadow her, and she said he seemed impressed with my initiative. So that's good. I wouldn't so much call it initiative as the desire to not be completely blindsided by a job I have not the first idea how to do, and also I was thinking that if I get another interview, it would be helpful to have spent a few days actually doing the job - I'll be able to answer the questions better.
I also had a phone interview with John from The Castillo. He quoted me $5,000 less than Rachel told me she could get me (and he said it with what felt like finality to me), and also informed me that the hotel has no benefits. No insurance, nothing. Which I think is a deal-breaker. It doesn't pay anywhere near enough to not carry any benefits, and I don't want to do group sales within a hotel anyway. But Rachel says he seems to have liked me and he told me he wants to schedule a second interview, which I told him would be okay, but I was really planning on telling Rachel it's not happening before I told him that. Now I just have to figure out how.
And finally... I think I'm getting a cold. I'm doing too much, I know it. I am SO TIRED during the day and I can't sleep at all at night. I've been having migraines, and even little mini-versions of anxiety attacks (God bless me for not having the full-on ones)... I'm just tired. I guess all the months of doing everything I can are finally getting to me.